My name is Karen and I have the disease of self-sufficiency.I've always known this.I didn't know it was a thorn in my side so to speak until I became born again.Two and a half years ago I went to work one morning and that changed in a powerful way.I felt rather odd that morning.It was not a feeling that had a name.I work in a child redevelopment center and I commented several times to my co-worker that I didn't feel "right".I put the child that was on my lap down beside me and I crawled onto the nice cool floor in a prone position and.......proceeded to have a seizure.Thus began the chapter in my life on epilepsy.Many medications,personality changing issues,partial seizures and other complications later,I'm saying with all conviction that I wouldn't change a thing in these last 2 1/2 years.God draws each and every one of us to him in different ways and my self-sufficiency was a stumbling block in my growth.When my cognitive processing abilities were slowed to a snails pace and false pride replaced with humility and dependence on the Lord,a new dimension of my soul was revealed to me.Trusting and depending on the Lord instead of Karen has turned out to be such a relief.